Beginnings

I guess here is where it starts. I am not sure where this will take me, but i am all in. There are so many things that I don't understand. This is not for other people. It is for me. I have felt lately like I do not understand. I feel like much of my life is finding out info for other people's lives. I need to know you. But that is the paradox, because i feel that I already do. I guess there is a lot on my mind...I just feel so unprepared. There is so much that I am not getting... I pray that you would open my understanding to you and who you really are...If you are who you say you are...than there is no problem with me seeking...because if I seek, you promised that I would find.